At 49 I was feeling old, unfit, overweight and irrelevant. Throw in hormonal upheavals, multiple bereavements and a rapidly emptying nest and you have a recipe for personal disaster. Figuring there must be others "out there" who felt confused and fearful about growing older, I started to pour my heart out in a blog that I called "project50". What happened next changed my life. A mixture of articles, musings and personal letters, "Oh Crap - I'm 50!" is a compilation of the best posts. Paperback and ebook available from Amazon.